I am in a very odd mood, one that is difficult to describe. I feel sort of like my life has become a film and I am just being pulled along by strings, almost floating. Since coming back from Europe I feel impervious to things that usually bug me, partly because I just ignore people half the time these days. This blog is really bad and cryptic but I just felt the urge to write some thoughts done..and failed. oh well, I tried.
Anyhow I am less pleased to be back from Europe than I thought I would be, and wish that I could recycle some of my friends, as harsh as that sounds. I am just sick of quite a few people. This summer has been strange, and I feel that I don't really know how to express it. But enough of that. I am actually excited at the prospect of school, working again, seeing shows and just getting away from some bizarreness of this summer.
hello blogblog. I haven't blogged in forever and I think that maybe I should change that. Lately I have been irrationally frustrated at various things which are boring and very highschool-esque. I just find myself getting sick of people. I need to get out of here for a bit.
Today was strange. I crashed my car and had the best evening I have had all summer. I was just backing out of a driveway and somehow I fucked up and just went backwards. It all happened so fast and it was humiliating and terrifying. I keep getting flashes of the loud bang followed by the realization that I had hit a tree. It was awful, and the back light was all screwed up and the car wouldn't change gears. I felt so shitty about it, in part because it was in a driveway and also because I don't understand how I did it. Anyway no point dwelling on it. Its going to cost a lot, but I hate cars. I want to bike all the time now, honestly, I forgot how fun biking is.
I tried not to dwell on my crash but I was pretty down on myself. This afternoon/evening was damn near perfect. Sitting on my roof and feeling the fresh breeze was soothing, and the rest of the night was how summer should be.
I can't place it. It has been a good start to summer, so action packed already. I can't quite pinpoint how I am feeling. I just have this need to blog right now, but I don't know what I am trying to say. I am happy its summer though!
At the dentists office today they shot me up with anesthetics and every time I blinked my head did the strangest thing. It became hyper aware and replayed minute details over and over in short rapid bursts. It was odd and slightly frightening. Anyhow all I could think of is how my great grandma didn't have a cavity until she was 94. Why the fuck am I talking about teeth? Who knows.
