I wish my blog today was a painting that conveyed my emotions more deftly than my words. I feel like a splatter painting of perceptions. Like http://jacksonpollock.org/. Today was fine, in terms of being event-filled I guess. I ran in the rain, went to the mall, and hung out with friends, and I also had a two hour drive time that was extremely stressful, as I had never driven before, despite having my permit for months. This is the first time I have had writers block on this blog. I need to write whats in my head.
I realized today how sad insecurities are. Everyone has them, to different extents. They make us settle for less, and hide behind different and fabricated guises and facades. I wish people acted as if they were five. Arcade fire can put it better than I ever will:
Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.
If the children don’t grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We’re just a million little god’s causin rain storms turnin’ every good thing to rust.
I guess we’ll just have to adjust
My head is really muddled presently and I can't move my fingers on the keyboard at the pace of my thoughts. I feel so ____ ( confused, exhausted, contemplative, uncertain, complacent).
Tonight I plan on watching The Godfather until very late. Nothing better than watching the vendetta's of timeless Italian mobsters in order to fall asleep.

Today was a feeble day. Shit, I didn't do anything and I just felt so useless today. I'm not even going to describe how bland it's been. When I stay at home, I often just lie around wasting time or go on the computer rather than doing something interesting. I sometimes feel so isolated here in Princeton. Today I could have hung out with some people, but I was too lazy to go anywhere. Rain sucks. The only concrete things that happened were my sister stumbling across a black bear near our house, and lightning almost hit a tree next to our house. Oh yeah, I attempted (and failed) to clean my room as well. Right now I'm nervous because I have a drivetime scheduled for tomorrow morning, but I have never driven a car outside of a tiny road. Should be 'fun'. My mood throughout the whole day has been like the weather, constantly changing from sun to clouds to violent thunderstorms. I am adding a new section to my blog. Link of the Day. It won't necessarily happen everyday, but only when I find something worthwhile.
The song stuck in my head right now is London Calling by The Clash.

After I was harshly woken up by my cat that crept into my room and started licking my face, my dad handed me a brush and I was forced to scrub the porch, in the scorching rays of the sun. I wasn't very pleased to do this menial task and it put me in a very bad mood. That changed when I went on a hike with B-Diehl. On the ledges I felt all my senses heightened and it was wild. Being around nature and letting it encompass you is crazy. I'm finding it hard gathering my thoughts about today, partly because my mind still feels like it is racing. I'm in peculiar mood right now. I feel I am watching my own recent life in slow motion. It's not a bad thing. Like it is as if my brain is trying to keep up with pace of my summer. It's hard to explain.
The pictures were taken at night, and the top one is yet again of the mysterious car. Upon further inspection the keys were left inside it, but it didn't start. The song for today is People Got a Lot of Nerve by Neko Case.

I was mowing my lawn today, an activity I relish as it provides me ample hours of uninterrupted listening to my ipod. Today an unexpected and hilarious thing happened while I was mowing, it was movie-like. I was cutting grass in front of my house, near the sidewalk with my back turned to the road. I was listening to some Justice and doing a funny little half-dance, when my nose was assaulted by the odorous stench of skunk. Apparently a pair of skunks had gotten into a fight in my front yard and run wild. It wreaked. So surprised by the smell, the strangest grimace formed on my face, with my nose extremely scrunched up to avoid the smell. I was in the act of turning the lawnmower around when I almost hit someone walking by me. It was a girl, and she was gorgeous. She looked my age and was walking a husky puppy, and she had clearly been watching me . I did a double take, waved at her as she passed me, while my lawnmower hit a tree, making a earsplitting crunching noise. She did not return the wave, probably a little startled by the sound and the terrible skunk smell, but she smiled. It was so awkward, which in turn made it amusing and comical. I learned she is new to my neighborhood, and I will commence a mission to woo her shortly. Exciting stuff.
After the my yard work, I sat on the roof of my house, staring at the fine job I did. A fresh mow can put you in a good mood. I proceeded to read Catch 22 for the rest of the afternoon. The song for today is For Reasons Unknown by The Killers.

I met Bryan in the center of town this morning to watch his uncle in a bike race, and it was a good time. When there were no riders, or just the shitty ones we read National Geographics, and I realized I need to resubscribe. Now. The afternoon consisted of a trip to the sanctuary, comet pond and alltogether it was a lovely day. I am having trouble these days choosing pictures of the day, as I have taken so many shots I like this week. Cross Country shout out '09 to Emglick who we all miss! I am going to go to the Sanctuary a lot more now. It is so picturesque in summer, like the rest of princeton right now. It is such a nice place to walk and mull things over with some ace friends. This blog is severly out of characer of my other blogs, but I can't really put words to how happy I was the whole day. El song de la day is Candy by the Raveonettes. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQoPAXIvLyA

The sun shone down for a bit today, and the temperatures went up to about eighty. It felt like summer weather for the first time in a while. Enough about the flippin weather though. The car in these pictures is really old and has been parked near my house for over a week. The back is open and exposed to the elements, and there is a small pool of water in the back seat. Everyday I had walk by and wanted to take a picture, so today I did. Today wasn't very good. My best friend is leaving for the cape for a few weeks, and we got into an argument and fight. It has kind of been brewing for a while because we are drifting apart even though we both won't admit it, but friendships have their ebbs and flows, and that's just a reality of life. Hopefully we'll be fine again when he gets back, but I'm finding it harder and harder to relate to him on things. The best part of the day was doing backdives into a pool. I love the feeling of swimming under the water. The whole world seems distant and I pretend to be an otter. A little odd, I know. I've been listening to a lot of songs today and I have an unprecedented three songs of the day: Sleepless by the Decemberists, Warning Sign by Coldplay and The Prayer by Kid Cudi (on the radio and stuck in my head)
Last night I watched American Beauty at 2 am, and it made my whole day yesterday feel worthwhile.

Today was dull and dreary. I went on a run and after about a mile my lungs started to tighten, and my knees began to ache. I despise asthma. To settle down, I walked for a while and found a small bench to rest on. It was in the center of town, set far back a little. It was dedicated to a girl who died from cancer about ten years ago. The little plaque read, "Ali Pierce is the beauty in every radiant ray of sunlight". Around the bench were a lot of painted stones, that were slowly peeling. Something about the little bench made me sad at first because it looked completely forgotten and ignored. After sitting down I allowed my heart rate to slow down, and go back to normal. I sat there, deep in thought about a lot of things, until long after I had recovered.
Tonight I was looking for the book Into the Wild, and I couldn't find it anywhere! After rummaging through many boxes of books I came across my dads yearbook and it was hilarious, but also fascinating. My dad looked funny, as did many kids in his class, but looking at all the young, hopeful faces and imagining their futures is intriguing. The song of the day is No Cars Go by Arcade Fire
I forgot to add that I found out that Where the Wild Things Are is coming out a week after my birthday! Exciting.